Okay so my new job is going farly well I guess.. I've been having a suuuper long week though! See, my grandmother passed away on Tuesday morning.. So there's wake and funeral arrangements.. The actual services.. Gah standing in a line for hours shaking peoples hands is no fun. Now I know what it feels like to be in the recieving line rather than just walking past it for a few minutes. I was never really close to my grandmother.. I mean to me she was just a lady I had to go visit every once in ahwile. Now though, it's a little tougher because you've got people all around you totally upset that you can't help but feel a little bad. I wished I have have tried to get to know her a little more when she was still around but that's out of the question now.

She passed away around 1:20am on Tuesday morning.. She had kidney troubles and pneumonia.. So it was probably good that she went fairly quickly, and she wasn't have any pain at all because she was sleeping when she passed away. Her kidneys completely failed and she was too weak to go on dialysis.. Not that that would have been much of a life.. Having to go to the hospital every second day to get all the toxins pumped out of you. She was 80 I think.. Or 79.

Anyways. So that's why I haven't been on these past few days.. In other news- the new job is awesome! I felt really shitty having to explain that my grandmother passed away and that was the reason that I had to leave early both today and tomorrow.. We are leaving here in about half an hour to go back to the funeral home for another bout of waking from 7-9, and then the funeral is tomorrow at 11am.

So off I go. My internet in my room isn't working right now.. I really don't know what's wrong with it so that's why I haven't even been on much.. I've been home but mostly just sitting with the family and stuff like that. I am in my brothers room right now on the main computer.. I just have a laptop and connect wirelessly to the router.. Perhaps I'll try unplugging and re-plugging in the router? Maybe that'll give me my wireless back? Who knows. It's pissing me off, in any event. Okay well off I go. <333

Thanks for the lovely comment, Rebecca. <333 I love you. I'll talk to you later.

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I started my new job today! It was awesome! I have my own desk and my own computer (which of course I also had at my last job..) buuut it's waaay better! I'm so happy. I think I'll really like it there, I get along with everyone really well.

So I had a pretty shitty weekend, though, as good as my day was today. I broke up with my boyfriend on Saturday morning. It was the worst decision of my life. Do you ever think sometimes your friends make you do things you don't want to? Like try and convince you that the only way you'll be happy is to break up with your boyfriend? When in reality, it's not what you want, AT ALL. But they just take all the bad things you've ever said about him and throw them in your face. So then of course you feel like the only way you can be happy is without him. Needless to say- I called Kenny Sunday morning and apologised like crazy.. Thank god he took me back. I felt like a sack of shit for it. And now my bestfriend is mad at me for going back to him, saying things like, "you didn't give it long enough to see that you're happy now". I'm sorry. I am happy now that I have Kenny back.

Anyways. I start two hours earlier now than my last job.. Gah. 7:00am start time, and it's a 1/2 hr drive to get there. So I need to wake up verrry early, hahah. It's fun though, I think it will work out perfectly for me! Hoorah! Suuuper happy!

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